I'm drained

That's how the universe run.After over two months' job hunting,I came back to the initial position.I felt I've been drained.Clear called me the other night telling me I'm probably not be able to enter Capgemini coz the headquater hasnt decided to recruit more new graduates in consulting.I hadn't take Cap as my last opportuniy but my most-wanted opportunity.Until that day,I realised I'd been taking it as a last hope.I had been aiming in getting a job in Beijing.Although no companies there have given me any pleasant response,I thought at least I still had approaches to Cap..Now in the middle of November,when the recruitment process has been moving to the middle stage,I know I have to change my strategy to re-target,on Dalian...

The thought to go to Beijing so that Al can find a job more easily in IT kept my attention just on BJ.It seems not realistic.I'm not capable enough to make it as a graduate from Dalian.Clear said I shouldn't take so much burdens which are not supposed to be mine at such an age.I can't help it.And now I know I have nothing in hand.Although PwC has informed me to go to the final interview next week,it's not a choice of mine to travel around for business.I have to balance the things I want.It's not kinda money or fame desire but so much concerns of my families,my relationship and my strong personality.

What is job?For career,or for living.

I received PwC's phone call yesterday morning when I was still in bed(actually already 10:30am).I passed the aptitude test and will go to the round-Assessment Center.Suddenly felt PwC was already there waiting for me.Just a feeling,while still feel a little nervous before the interview.There are three parts of Assessment Center:connecting thinking,case study and one to one manager interview.Not the whole process is made in English.The first part needs you to make up a story and play a drama with your teammates with the three words given.The second part is the traditional case study.I have forgotten how I do it when I was freshman in the case study competition.But I should be more self-confident.The manager interview is one to one.I like that,better in English...

[Listening to Chris Garneau]

Journey

The job searching season is always filled with frustration,worries and fuss.People can easily lose themselves under such a big pull from the climate.What kinda job do you want?What do you want to do?What kinda person are you?

When you face to a dilemma of "go" or "not to go",you get stuck in those questions and was tempted by the offers in front of you.OR,no one seems like you as a member of them,no companies accept you.You would easily get lost too.You will tend to give in before the current reality."Maybe I should just pick a random job coz I'm afraid I'd be dumpted by the 'God of jobs' "

Don't complain about the society or untold rules.The fact is fact.What has happened is the truth.You have to live with it.Nothing is more powerful than the truth to give you the "fairness".And the society itself is objective.You are driving the ship.You decide the direction.As long as the result,it's up to the rules-both natuaral and social.And the spirit to keep your ship safe in whatever storm lies on your heart and mind.Your mind is the source of peace.

And I am trying to keep mind peaceful in the stream.

Night of Rock

He is a funny guy with "diverse" facial expression

Went to see Christophe Godin's guitar show in Olympic Square.There were several young bands too.Had a noisy and rocky night there taking pictures for the host.Had a not too bad time.After all,I've been tense and upsetting Al.It was time for me to release,well,in a "shakey rocky" way.

PS: I took the pictures with Canon 400D,TAMRON AF 17-50mm f/2.8
which were borrowed from Xiaoqi.I like big apiture.

I'm lovin it

I had "Da pan ji" for lunch with Oscar and Haibin.After the "tired" eating,we went to Oscar's house to "visit" his lenses.Gorgeous lenses!They were given by O's father and uncle.Manule controlled lenses with outstanding quality.Cool
babies they are!

I've been wanting to get a new camera of Nikon so that I could be addicted to N's lenses.Due to the high prices,I hope I can afford them after I work.D80 is a good choice with not too hight price.The newest discount is 7800yuan RMB with a 18-135mm zoom lens and one 2G SD card...oh,and a tripod.It was a attractive package.I'm watering. Another dream camera is Fuji S5Pro...I know,very expensive.over 13,000yuan.It's an Ace camera to take portraits,used by professional photographers.It's a fantastic portfolio to use it with N's lens.A 50mm f/1.8 macro will be amazing for me.One of Oscar's macro lens made a sharp image of my eye.

Oscar's house is too big for him and his girlfriend.Nice enviroment,silent and with many plants around.And much sunshine coming into the room.I like warm sunshine in house.But in his words,"too many oldies and kids around" and "remote".Yea,I remember this word."Remote"-偏僻.

Anyway,after coming out of O's home.I went to MsDonald's with Haibin for dinner(seems all we did was eating).A long time hadn't been there.I knew I would be "Aww"ed by my boyfriend again about my eating McD. Well,at least we took several pictures in it other that eating the unhealthy food.;-)